Cassie:

. I admit, that comment I made, I shouldn't have done it, and I really am sorry for having done so.
. Did you forget what else I said to you about your rats?
. What things do you mean, please? What about my relationships with Rachel do you mean? I really cannot think of what I could have said that makes you think that about me.


How do I not have any respect for myself? I have plenty. And how can you say I have *no* compassion? I really just do not understand how you can make comments like that. I have plenty of compassion; I just know that everything that I have ever said over the past few months has been twisted, and I've been made out to be someone I'm not.

I can't do anything about how you feel about me and my actions, nor can I force you to be my friend again. I appreciate you for getting back to me, Cassie. I just hoped that you would have wanted to talk through this and actually try to be my friend again. But obviously if you already think so little of me (after knowing me for how many years?), then I can't change that.


Rachel:

I am surprised that you have a boyfriend. Especially knowing who that boyfriend is. But I want you to know that I don't hate you. I don't really feel anything anymore. You're in France, moving on. Already have done. And me..I'm finishing here. I just don't know how we can ever become friends. All contact is cut between us. Mutually blocked on Facebook. I don't know your email address. I don't know your phone number. You've moved LJs I'm assuming, or you just don't have one at all. But I don't hate you. I'm not even sure I like you. I'm just...totally numb from it all. I don't feel anything. But I don't have your memory clouding me anymore, because I've moved on past it. And I would have said this to you somewhere private, but like I said, I have no other way.





[and before anyone says anything, I've *had* to say this in an open letter, because all methods of me getting in contact with the people has been cut, but I needed to get this out otherwise I would never be free of what is in my head. Please, allow me my catharsis. And yes, if any of you still speak to Cassie/Rachel, then you can point them in this direction. Screened comments, obvz.]